I want to be pregnant

There was a time I swore I didn't want kids...

I want a baby.

I can't stop thinking about it. It's become obsessive. I want it.

I feel like at least if we were able to start trying now it'd feel better, but I'm not sure... Maybe once we start trying I'll become even more anxious.

I never wanted to feel this way. I'm a little pissed at the world for the fact that I do feel this way...