Hold Me Back...

My brother turns 19 next month. He hasn't yet graduated high school.

He just called to tell me his girlfriend is pregnant.

I'm going to kill someone...

I officially HATE

cramps.

Early Pregnancy Tests

I've decided it is WAY easier for me to just wait and see than it is to take an EPT. I could test now, but they aren't always correct early on. I'd rather wait... And I have been able to avoid obsessing. If I'm not posting here you can assume it's because I am doing alright, and not stressing out...

Thank you...

...to the most amazing best friend I could ever ask for... you were a wonderful distraction today. I managed to avoid hating pregnant women, avoid glaring at strollers... Today was beautiful. Perfect. For the first time in a long time my world felt complete even WITHOUT a baby in it. Thank you. There are no words to express how much today meant to me...

Folding...

baby clothes... -sigh-

Oh, and I'm absolutely LOVING that this entire season of Eureka has revolved around one of characters' pregnancy... (Is the dripping sarcasm obvious enough there? Even my sci fi shows aren't safe these days!)

The Process

And so it begins again... Hope everyone bears with me as I lose my mind over the next few weeks. :)

Creating a Family

I've spent a RIDICULOUS amount of time with the girl lately. She's been a really blessed distraction during our couple of weeks between inseminations. We've always been the kind of friends who can't stop talking to each other, so we've covered a lot of topics in the last week. This morning we were discussing family, and what that means to us. The roles she, C and I each play in my family. And how badly I want to raise a baby in that loving environment.

We were also talking about C this morning. How much she loves the both of us, and wants us both to be happy. How amazing she is, how giving she is. I ended up crashing at the girl's place last night and when I got home this morning I had a note from C saying she was sorry she didn't get an opportunity to kiss me goodbye this morning. I'm not sure she knows just how much she means to me, how much those notes mean to me.

So, even though I'm absolutely DYING in this heat, I wanted to write about how great life is. My family is messed up but we're so perfect together. Me, C, the girl, her daughters, my sisters, C's brothers, and more... Nieces, nephews. We're a very lucky group of people. I can't wait to have a house I can fill up with all those people and all that love.